Have u ever been in love?Horrible,isn't it?It makes u so vulnerable.It opens your chest it opens your heart.it means someone can get inside u- mess u up.U build up all these defenses.U build up this whole armor,for years,so nothing can hurt u, then one stupid person,no different from any other stupid person,wanders into your stupid life...u give them a piece of u. hey don't ask for it.They do something dumb one day like kiss u or smile at u.life isn't your own anymore.Love takes hostages.It gets inside u.It eats u out and leaves u crying in the darkness,so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt,a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart hurt.I hate love-

stole this from zhen!haha rocks!

i love my mummy!
Late at night when all the world is sleeping,I stay up and think of you,and I wish on a star that somewhere you are thinking of me too.

went shopping wit her todae..at first was pissed wit her cox she went round to de diff shops to do her work!den she met her boss at heerans?and her boss asked her how old am i!he dont believe im 14?hahas he wanted to hire me to work part time?!aiyah too bad im underaged!wit another 2 more yrs!i wanna work!so fun!
bought some stuff todae.mummy quite generous todae lah?bought a shorts,a skirt,some slippers but mus share wit my mummy.and some other stuff lah!de slippers quite ahem girly.haish yepps.im sick!very sick!terriebly sick!got bad flu!and im lonely! why u go away without me!hmph!dont talk to you le!wahaha im tokin shites again! tmr goin to de gym wit stella,her jy and rena!skipped too many trngs le.dun buck up den die die!poo0fs!
me wanna go sleep!bye!

herewithoutyou-
||the start of a new story??


If you look into my eyes you will see me.If you look into my heart you will see you.

//*a star fell,and i had caught it. but when i fell for you, where were you to catch me?*\\



poo0f!nahnanahnanahna!

//lets twist lick dunk!lik we did last summer!yeah..
lets twist lick dunk!lik we did last year!
lets twist lick dunk!twsiting time is hereeeee!||K.R.A.F.T!

so cute this song!de orea song!

back from trng!trng was pretty light todae.
ooi sucks big time! she gave me a pink slip!which means dat my poor mummy has to go see her in school to collect my report book.and she also wanna talk to my mum about my behavior.blegh.todae she was lik if u're a good daughter you wun give ur parents trouble.den i told her dat if she was a good teacher,she would make life easier for my mummy dens.true wat!stupid ooi.my mum not free to go see her on sat lah!so troublesome.and im gonna get screwed wen she see my results!
ooi went to piss me off wen i was sad!rgh.blegh.and stella damn suay today. somehow pms-ing also.hahas.my laos is grounded!so poor thing!allowance kena cut also.and best lor! she's grounded during de june holidaes!
school ends at 12.50 tmr!yipeeEE!wanna go watch TROY!but im broke lahh!anybody wanna watch wit me??! wahahas.

-im lovin it'-

IM BACK!damn damn tired!head damn pain!duno what shite we did also..hahas nutness nutness!i hope i din sae or do anything wrong!?i gave my first kiss to stella!wahaha den to twinnie and zhen!mad.we were all high.dint go for de briefing in de end todae coz im having high fever?!so must rest.yepp.i dont have enough sleep!wahaha i hugged a skinny bamboo to sleep last night!?yeah lah thanks.=p
and ohhh!stella's a stupid vampire sucker.she good at sucking huhs.hahas.crap lah.only YOU- will understand.ohmy im talking shite.going to take a nap nows!

cash converters cheat my money!!!i went to sell my gameboy and dey only gave me like $22!cheaters rite!hmph!wads de use of selling it dens!im still as broke!$22 wont make much of a difference!haish.25th!!!hahas.-screams!-k la wodeva.
[blinded?] who0sh! im getting sick!think i'll go see doctor tmr.real sick.blegh.some dirty pig!havent bathe yet.tsk tsk.lazy pig.=p
kim and gabs are jus below me!wahaha dey sleeping ova at charmaine's house.jus now gab was shouting my name frm downstairs!den we were talking to each other frm de 6th floor! i tink de whole block can hear wat we were toking bouts.oh wells.ILOVEYOU-

//I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish I could take it all away.

yipee!just got home from parkway!trng was terrible todae!hahax jus cant seem to run!blegh forget it!had brunch at parkway.saw meinu dere!she was with her fren doing some art craft thingy.de one after puting de colour mus put into de oven thingy!den we all decided to do it also!i did my name.yeps and another name!so broke already!walked around,went arcade den came home.ohh!and we saw tasha and fairuz dere.tasha was MAD!!!hahas yeah as usual larh.she was kicking and punching me for god knows wad reason!peekelaosai!last rciy for this term later!at 4.30 den going for de 6.30 mass with rena!im like broke?!

back from ikea!bought de computer table already!so fucking heavy ks!and me and mummy had to carry it home!bought some rags and stuff too.not much lah.go there and waste time only.mummy's going bonkers!she jus called me an arsehole!and she's like cutting watermelon in my room?siao!and she's naggin and naggin and screaming!
poor her.must be cox of yesterdae..she mistook a dirty rug which i used to wipe de tables and floor to clean her face!tsk tsk.so blurr.


so much things going thru my mind.dun even knoe wat de hell im thinking also.damn.

THANKIES LAOS!i love yoo!!!

muaha dawn is this okies? haha i rock lahs. -dawn screams that she loves zhen! haha yes yes i know i know. muaha. wheeees. laos! dont worry so much wo ai ni duo duo! haha ggrs rock! yeah fei baybeh fei! haha im high laas. smuacks! haha woots kay la waiting for you to come online. faster! wooots. -hops away !

my blog is screwed!somebody help!laos!help help help!

cant carry on this lie.
im sorry.

back!de show was nice.vans helsing?is dat how u spell it? but in de middle of de show got smth wrong! after dat went to pasir ris de fisherman village to eat and drink a little?only had a mug of beer larh.very bitter!dun like!
trng's gonna resume soon!boring!very tired.dunno wat im thinking also.shits. nites!

my com's alive!finally!yay!yeps thank you!
gonna watch movie soon with rena stella sam and duno who..
aiyah tokin to dem now.stella so noisy!and rena's trying yo explain how to dress like jing jing now..
im fuckin broke!i need to go caash converters to sell my stuff!!
k lars blog again tonight!

girlfren wote a super nice letter!thanks!but dat stupid bious pig!wrote so many NICER letters to her 172-!hmph.no fair! hahax but nvm larh!thanks anywaes girlfren!yupp having art in de com lab now.supposed to do some shit research yah for de mid years.heck lahh.gonna go study on thurs and fridae!yeah.so damn bored now!we got trngs dis week!i dowan to goo! need to study kaes!mmm..

[i would go any extra mile for you-
you added colours to my exsitence.
you gave me life and you've got me smitten.

-a thousand and one thots running thru my mind-

a shattered;torn;broken soul.
broken;bruised and sore.too fcuked up to care anymore.]
rocks rite?!stella wrote all this in my journal!yeah girlfren rocks!ilu- hahas.

hellos!so long never blog already!im at rena's house now!so many things happened! wohoo!nats junior!was kinda okae lah!dun feel like running anymore.so sian.mid year coming!im so dead!went sentosa on fridae!ROCKS MAN!rena is singing now!oh no!very dark now!steph sucks!rena finally learnt her volleyball!steph is being retarded now!sentosa rocks!at night went to de jason dat open pub place at changi village!de bapok go tok to rena!hahas.so digusting.okies nvm.yeah den ppl got high and stuff.blurtted some shit out.aiyah i lazy type.go read rena's blog if she updated?yep!stella was SO NOT drunk arh!haha yeah den went to east coast and all.want exams to hurry finish!den we can go for de concert thingy!and steph pang seh us on fridae!she rather go out wit her dat guy fren!hmph!de one wit de plaster on de face?!!!box her!haha chailert rox lah!

tmr going to study!maths is killing me!oh no!thurs gonna study!friday also!blegh!someone better help me with my maths! or i'll be in deep shit!yeah!next mondae maths exam already!den science den history den lit den chinese den art?!! smth liddat lah!den free after dat already! yay!! wohooo!

ks i dun wanna let steph type so gtg now!all steph's fault!come on blame herrrr!xp

+all that you have left me is a broken promise,many shattered dreams,a broken heart and silent tears. at this moment i realised that dreams were just dreams and werent real+